Wow…it has been a while since I have blogged and so much has gone on in my life! So the last blog I wrote was on the eve of my 27 birthday. I spent the year prior focusing on me…losing 85 pounds…finding my inner happiness…and trying to really understand what it is that I love about myself.
I promised myself that in my 27th year that I would start putting myself out there. I did just that…after I wrote that blog in July, I started putting myself out there and meeting people. I even met someone who for a while, I had something nice and long term with. I started thinking to myself, “find happiness within yourself and you’ll find happiness with someone else.” AND I DID! It felt great to finally be able to put my own walls down, love myself, and love someone else. Now…that ended and I was crushed.
I found myself not working out, eating right, and loving myself. I was missing everything that I had worked so hard to achieve. WHY?! WHAT?! ARE YOU CRAZY STEVE! You worked your ass off and the power of someone else took over you.
I constantly think to myself…you are being ridiculous. Love yourself. Be yourself. Don’t let anyone else bring you down. Why do I tell you this? Well…it all happened like 4 days before the most difficult thing I did in my entire life! Which was run my first FULL MARATHON. Yeah…talk about total mind games.
So I ran my first marathon. Well, I shouldn’t say I…I should say WE! I ran with two of my work friends Krista and Aimee. I would not have been able to do it without them! When they say “mind over matter” they mean it. It is a total mind game. I walked into that marathon more determined to find myself and say to myself “you can do anything that you set your mind to” and it was f****ng hard.
Let’s relive a little bit of it shall we…
- We had to wake up a 2:30AM to be at the start line by 4AM
- I thought, “hey it’s Florida…it’ll be warm” so I only packed a long sleeve shirt, short sleeve shirt, running shorts, and running tights. THANK GOD I PACKED THAT! It was 35 degrees the morning of the race.
- I had to take Motrin twice throughout the race just to keep the bottoms of my feet from hurting too much.
- I had the worst mental road block at mile 22. I couldn’t get myself to work past it from 22 to 26.
Yeah…that is a lot of negatives…but here are some positives:
- WE FINISHED!
- I got a KILLER medal
- I got to meet MICKEY MOUSE
- We experienced the most magical place on earth for four glorious days
- So many of you followed our run using the Facebook Live feed and kept us going with your positivity and love
Will I ever run a marathon again? I’m not sure…but today, we signed up to head to Disneyland in November to partake in the Super Hero Infinity Challenge! We will run a 10K and a Half Marathon in 2 days and receive 3 medals! HECK YEAH! If you know me…you know I am in it for the medal.
Over the next month, I will find running again and train for the Pittsburgh Half Marathon. I will love myself again and start to take care of myself in the way that I used to. We should all just be people loving people and finding the best in everyone. Don’t dwell on the negative. Don’t live in the sadness. Grow from every situation, find your silver lining, and when all else fails…hit the pavement.
I’ve missed writing this and I am hoping to keep it going for a little while longer.
If you’ve come back to reading this…thanks…I’ve missed you!